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I have no idea why I haven't written in a while.  More to the point, I have no excuses.  All I can say relates to something in my last entry.

When it rains, it pours.

Kathy and I are still dating.  It's going alright, although we don't see each other too often.  The freedom is still there, and neither of us are too keen to let it go just yet.  It's nice to have a mutual understanding about it.  The 'relationship' is at an empass at the time being.  The physical end is at the brink of explosion, anymore.  I'm such a hornball right now, I'm afraid to get too close to her, for fear of humping her leg.  The funniest thing is that she's getting just as bad.

I was talking to her the other night about it, and she made an odd request.  She wanted to hear my 'best lines'.  She told me I had to work for it, if I wanted it that badly, which I do anymore.  She's such a friggin tease.

I was lost.  I don't use lines.  They're ignorant.  I'd rather be honest and let fate decide.  If I just want a one-night stand, I state that fact.  That way, no one can b!tch about me being a player.  I told her this, and she wouldn't have it.  She wanted a line.  I kind of beat around the subject for a while, hoping that she'd let it drop, but she didn't.  It was funny, I eventually just blirted out "Well, we have the emotional end down pretty well.  Can't we start in on the physical?  I want to know I'm good enough and vice-versa."  To which she replied, "Okay, not THAT was a good line!"  We both laughed, and the conversation went on to other things.

I must say, finally someone that just sits back, relaxes, and lets it fly!  Not too serious, and not too intense.  It's a good feeling!

Annie and I are having major problems in our friendship, lately.  She's changed a lot over the last couple of months.  She's cold, bitter, and on the edge.  I worry a lot about her, because I care about her.  I do have to say, though, I don't love her like I used to.

I loved her for her personality, for her strength, and for her beliefs.  She was a very understanding person at one time.  She's become very short with people now.  Her temper is rampant, and she snaps at the drop of a hat.  She's also been lying to me about quite a few things.  I've seen her mood shifts before, but they've never been this bad.  I don't think that this is going to go away easily.  I see this person, and I talk to her, and I know that I couldn't love this woman.  She is the opposite of everything I believe in.  I respect her perseverence, but I can't love her, or trust her anymore.  She is still young, in a lot of ways, and has a lot to experience in life (not to say that I'm any better, I just understand that it exists).  I hope she'll be alright.

She's also dating someone, she met over a chat room, that lives in Maine.  He seems like a nice guy, and I hope it works out for them.  She really deserves to be happy, and she says that she is now.  I hope he has a lot of patience, because that's what she really needs, is someone with more patience than I have.  She's going to see him for a month starting a month from now.  In my eyes, one of two things will happen:

1) She'll go, and not come back.
2) She'll go, and things won't work out, and she'll be back much sooner than a month.

Again, I hope for the best for her.  I also hope that she doesn't hurt him as much as she's hurt some of the others in her life.  I guess, I hope it works out for the both of them! lol

There are a ton of other things that I could put down right now, but I won't.  Most of them are either things that I don't know enough about at the moment, or things that don't really matter in my life.  I know that I've been focusing more on my social life than my thoughts for a while, and I do apologize, mostly to myself, for that.  Time is a real constraint at the moment.  All I can say is the usual.
 

As always,

Life is in the air.........