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Wow, what a week!  My life is starting to liven up quite a bit.

First off, Annie and I had a long talk the other night.  Apparently, she wants to get back together.  Where this came from all of a sudden is beyond me.  It's not a bad thing, granted.  It's just confusing as hell.

I've almost gotten used to the idea....no wait....more to the point, I'd dealt with the fact that she was out of my life in a romantic aspect.  Now, it's all turned back around again.  It's really confusing.

I don't know what to do about it.  I mean, I still love her, that much I know.  It's just that her and I are so destructive to each other.  It's almost like we expect the other to change any day now, and we'll just wait and be patient for that to happen.

We won't change, though.  We're both stuck in our ways, and beliefs, which isn't wrong.  It just makes it very difficult for two people so different to make a relationship work.  She's a good friend, and someone that I care a great deal for, and I don't want to lose that.  I almost did once, and I won't again.  Friends are too dear to me.

To make matters more difficult, Sat night was our Depot night again.  Yes, I got a little intox'ed.  It was fun, though.  Anyways, I was sitting there, waiting for something interesting to happen.  You know how it goes, sitting there, watching to door to the bar, waiting for Ms Rightnow to show up, sit on your lap, and say 'Take me!'  I saw Kathy, an old flame from around my high school days, sitting across the bar, so I went to say hi.

Let me clarify something about Kathy.  During the years of 91-93 (roughly) I had the biggest crush on her.  She was dating a guy that I knew, and he was a jerk from hell.  Her and I were very close, so I knew everything that was going on with them.  When their relationship ended, she decided to give me the chance I'd been begging for.

Well, the 'relationship' (if that's what you can call it) lasted for about a week.  I think she got bored with me, I'm not sure.  We really didn't get a chance to discuss it.

We grew apart, as friends sometimes do.  We didn't hardly even talk for almost 4 years.  I saw her recently, shortly after Annie and I split up.  It was at a bar (not the one I go to now), and I got her #, so I could call her.  I never really did, and she never called me, so I figured that was that.

Well, now that you're up to speed (lol), I called her today, to just BS.  We talked for a while, and she asked if I'd like to come to this lounge she likes for a drink and some kareoke.  I said okie (although I'm not into the whole kareoke thing), and we had a ball!  I didn't feel like drinking heavy, but Kathy had her fair share.  It was great.

Now, the problem.  There's a lot of attraction there.  From both of us, not just me this time.  She started getting a little too drunk, towards the end of the evening, and said that she'd better get home, or I wouldn't be going home tonight.  We both looked at each other for a minute, and you could have cut the tension with a knife!  I told her to get home, get some sleep, and we'll do something later this week.

I have a feeling that there's something here, but I don't want to jump to anything, with everything else that's going on.

lol

When it rains, it pours.
 

As always,

Life is in the air.........