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So many things going on, but so little to talk about.  All the things that I've been writing about lately are still pretty intense, and no resolves are close in site.

My folks' relationship is still on the very 'iffy' side.  Nothing's really been figured out there.  All I know is that my dad is supposed to write a letter to my mom about why he feels that he is so unhappy.  This may be a good thing, just for understanding's sake, but who knows what it will bring.  We're still not sure if their relationship is going to work, or if they will divorce, but we ARE sure of one thing.  No matter what, this situation will be to a close soon.  I'll keep you updated on it.

The female situation is still stagnant.  I haven't talked to Jen in almost a week now, and I'm starting to wonder if she has fallen ill again.  I worry about her alot.  She's a real sweetheart.

I finally went and visited Emily at her home, to my disappointment.  She likes to party, and smoke a bowl now and again, and that's just not me.  I don't think we'd have much in common.  Granted, I'm not going to say that she's wrong for it, but I just don't enjoy it, and I feel that it would definitely cause tension.

Annie and I are still talking, although things are a little stressed still. We've been trying to work through some problems.  Like everything else, though, don't quite know where it'll lead.

I do have a good piece of news, however.  I have a friend in Canada, Alya, that I've been writing to for over 4 years now.  We've never met in person, however, we've always talked about how nice it would be.  We have always been really close, and we talk about almost everything.

Well, for quite a while, we both had a lot going on, and we couldn't write to each other as much as we would've like to.  (more to the point, I wasn't)  We've refreshed the routes of communication again, and it's great to talk to her like we used to.  Only one problem.  Some of the old 'feelings' started to come back to me.  I say it that way due to the fact that we've never really met.  We've only had this uncanny feeling that there could and would be something more if we did.  This was always something that I'd kept in mind to myself, although never really held my breath for it!

I would really enjoy meeting her, but on the same note, almost afraid to.  There's a lot of space between us, and that would make it really difficult for a relationship, if there would be one, and I would never ask anyone to do that for me.  I feel strangely attracted to her, in a way that I can't really describe.  I really care about her, and I want nothing but the best for her.  That's the dillema. Would I be the best for her?

Well, enough of my sounding like a love-struck highschooler.  Like I said, a lot of things are uncertain, but it keeps me on my toes, I guess!

BTW: I have decided to share a quote that I saw in the movie The Postman.  It's from Shakespeare, although I can't really place where, right off.

"But when the horn of war blasts in our ears,
then imitate the action of the tiger
Disguise fair nature with rage.
Summon up the blood,
and lend the eye a terrible aspect."

Kind of inspires me to keep fighting, and not to give up.
 

As always,

Life is in the air.........